Drug free, that's they way it has to be. We all need to feel our feelings, and that takes real work.
Drugs do not "heal". The idea of healing from distress is complete nonsense. But people post on this forum that things like LSD heal. No, all drugs do is give you an escape, for a while.
You either deal with the source of the distress, or it just passes, or it clobbers you. But you do not heal from it because there is nothing wrong about the fact that danger and risk stimulate your feelings. Distress is an evolutionarily developed response to that which places us at risk. And anything which attacks our social and civil standing is placing our survival in jeopardy. Poverty in a land of plenty is caused by social marginalization. And as long as we survivors do nothing to punish perpetrators, seize reparations, and to protect the next generation of probable victims, then we don't have social and civil standing. We live in the shadows which the abusers have left us, seen as ne-er do wells and as a social hygiene menace, because we do not have public honor.
And a psychotherapist is not going to lift a finger to help you restore your public honor. What they do is tell you how to try to live without public honor. Because from their POV, the fact that you have not submitted to a life without honor is the main problem. Hence psychotherapy is indeed very much like Christianity.